As I thought about writing this post for the blog chain at ChristianWriters.com I pondered how to use the word savor. Should I write an exciting post about savoring my favorite foods, or express the joys I experience when I have a particularly good day? Perhaps, sharing the wonders of savoring my relationship with Jesus Christ would make an apropos post. But, as the day drew near for this post, the Lord impressed upon my heart to write something I, at first, did not care to share.
Defining savor as a verb I noticed that it’s, “to give oneself to the enjoyment of: to savor the best in life.” ~Dictionary.com
With that thought in mind, I write about a time in my life wherein circumstances forced me to learn to savor time lost writing. I hope that this post, in some small way, encourages, not only writers but all who read it.
Discouragement is a word we writers well know. Often we work late into the night, greeting the lonely dawn with weary eyes. Long nights of writing are very often my closest friend. During the past years having a family to care for, I found it difficult to set a regular writing routine, so I carved bits of time from my days to write. My writing is a ministry, more than a career. God has called me to write, you see. He has led me to implement this ministry in such a way that I hold the freedom to publish at my own pace. At this point in time, God hasn’t called me to make a living off of my writing, so this writing schedule worked fine for me.
But I did write. And I looked forward to the times when I sequestered myself alone in my tiny writing area and simply created. During the times I wrote I was adamant that the time was about me and my writing. I knew that was an entirely selfish outlook, but I wanted to write. Whenever I suffered interruptions, I felt great annoyance.
Then the day came when my father-in-law told us that he had been diagnosed with bladder cancer, and with treatment, the doctors offered him only five more years of life.
My family’s world ceased to exist as it once had, for we all lived and worked closely together on the family farm.
My life and my writing suffered a great and unexpected interruption.
My family focused solely on my father-in-law and how best to—we hoped—bring him through the cancer so he might enjoy an even longer life. Days were spent in doctor’s visits, tests, surgeries, terrible illness, well anyone who knows, knows. Cancer is a devastation of body, mind and often soul.
Admittedly, I tried to write some during the two years my father-in-law lived with the cancer, but with the constant worry about his health, added chores and interruptions, I found it difficult, so I made the decision to simply lie my writing aside and concentrate wholly on my father-in-law. I even had a major project go unfinished, but it seemed insignificant in the light of my father-in-law’s needs. With the decision to temporarily stop writing something in me changed. I thought I was helping him by giving of myself. Little did I know that he would help me. I began to savor my time with him, to savor each moment of life altogether. I was daily reminded of a basic Christian truth. Even when life’s circumstances overwhelm us with seemingly impossible situations, God has not left our side.
God tells us in the book of Hebrews in His precious Word that he will never leave us or forsake us.
He also says that, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” ~New International Version (NIV)
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Since my father-in-law’s death in December of 2011, I began, slowly at first, now with more rapidity, to write again. But I think of my father-in-law often and all that he taught me both during his life and through his dying. I now, gladly say, I thank God for that two-year hiatus from my writing, not because my father-in-law was ill and died. Never! But because, I learned to remind myself that even when my life doesn’t work according to my plan, I should never waste time longing for what I cannot or do not have. I ought to savor every part of my life.
Thank you, dear father-in-law, for sharing your life with us. He danced through life with a smile. We miss him dearly and look forward to our reunion in heaven.
Have you ever taken an unexpected hiatus from writing? Did you resent the time or learn to savor it?
5Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
6So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
~King James Version
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
~New International Version (NIV)
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
~King James Version
Author of the Called to His Purpose series
Writing is my ministry, not my job
March’s blog chain theme at ChristianWriter’s .com is, ‘savor’, so why not savor these posts throughout the month?